Howard Jones can search my soul, if you will please.

you can look at the menu, but you just can't eat
you can feel the cushion, but you can't have a seat
you can dip your foot in the pool, but you can't have a swim
you can feel the punishment, but you can't commit the sin
and you want her, and she wants you
we want everyone
and you want her
and she wants you
no one, no one, no one ever is to blame

you can build a mansion, but you just can't live in it
you're the fastest runner but you're not allowed to win
some break the rules, and let you cut the cost
the insecurity is the thing that won't get lost
and you want her, and she wants you
we want everyone
and you want her,
and she wants you
no one, no one, no one ever is to blame

you can see the summit but you can't reach it
its the last piece of the puzzle but you just can't make it fit
doctor says you're cured but you still feel the pain
aspirations in the clouds makes your hopes go down the drain
and you want her,
and she wants you
we want everyone

The Promise

If you need a friend,don't look to a stranger,You know in the end,I'll always be there.And when you're in doubt,and when you're in danger,Take a look all around,and I'll be there.I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)But if you wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,I promise, I promise you I will.When your day is through,and so is your temper,You know what to do,I'm gonna always be there.Sometimes if I shout,it's not what's intended.These words just come out,with no gripe to bear.I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)But if you wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,I promise, I promise you...I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)And if I had to walk the world, that make you fall for me,I promise you, I promise you I will.I gotta tell ya, I need to tell ya, I gotta tell ya, I gotta tell yaaaa ...I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)But if you wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,I promise you, I promise you...I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)And if I have to walk the world to make you fall for me,I promise you, I promise you I will ...I will...I will...I will...

Including our minorities

So Stephen Harper has decided that if the Conservatives are voted into power, same-sex married couples would be legit but only the ones that are not yet married...well...there will be no legal definition for them. For starters, this perspective will never float under our Canadian constitution. Doesn't this man understand his own countries' laws? Yeah, it's okay for some but not for all. I'm truly inspired by his start to the federal election campaign! NOT

Paul Martin is campaigning on fiscal responsibility. Well.......that may not be bought by alot of Canadians particularily Quebecers. I like the system of the gas tax but he makes no mention of our health care system. Pssstt......Paul, can we retain the record of the last 2 years of fiscal responsibility toward our health care please?

Ah....Jack....I'll tell you again that I love this guy. He's taking the high road to detail the accomplishments made by his Party the NDP: More money for health care, lower tuition fees, low-cost housing, and improved public transit.

Astrologically speaking, the next federal government formed would focus more on the mistakes of the past and learn from them. Usefulness would be questioned on almost every issue (if it isn't now!!!) Regardless of the party elected, our immigration would boom and the concern would equally boom. Our reputation in the world would be either heros or agressors depending on the ruling party. Mysteriously, there would be a hidden authority involed that would be unmasked within the first 8 months of holding federal office.

The choice is ours. Let's make an impact into our federal landscape!

Love'n'tolerence,
Becca

Sometimes, ya gotta ask questions....Literally!

Your Hon. Anne McLellan,

Just an inquiry on the position that our federal government is taking in regards to the recent kidnapping situation in Iraq. I'm sure the volunteers were taken off guard by the current violence in the country, and I'm aware the Canadian Government has issued a travel advisory to Iraq. Sometimes it's very hard to hear about all the violence in the world news regarding poor Iraq, and for some people, they would like to think that they can make a difference. If possible, let's create a dialog with the U.S. administration to get involved with the cleanup of Iraq if the elections go well next month. Until an agreement is reached, I wish for Canada to keep issuing travel advisories to the greater Canadian public. Some risks should be taken with the added benefit of keeping Canadians safe at all times.

I realize that same-sex marriage has become an issue to the glorious far right in Canada. As a personal advocate of equal rights for gays, I cannot vote for a party that would like to undo our great fabric of civil society by excluding a minority. I hope that the Liberal party platform continues it's progressive human rights policies and fiscal responsibility. Thanks for all your hard work.

Right Now

Right now somebody loves you. Right now somebody dreams about you. Right now somebody needs you. Right now somebody’s proud of you.

Right now somebody’s calling your name. Right now somebody’s hoping your well. Right now somebody’s feeling your shame. Right now somebody cares if you live.

Right now somebody hears you. Right now somebody knows who you are. Right now someone is praying for you. Right now someone believes in your heart.

Right now somebody wants to be your friend. Right now somebody’s thinking about you. Right now someone is wondering where you are. Right now you are a piece of it all.

Winter Election?

So the Conservatives & the NDPers have put forth a motion to have a January election. The first item the Tories bring to the media? Same-sex marriage. For those of you who know me well, can someone please explain something to me? It's obvious that they are going to try to ignite some conservative outrage with Canadians that don't agree with same-sex marriage. It's a done deal Canada-wide. It doesn't seem suprising that the Conservatives are already picking a fight with a minority, but do they really think this approach is going to win them favorability with Canadians to succeed in an election?!! Even in life it's always easier to place blame and point out errors instead of coming up with our own platform on how we may do things differently. As far as I'm concerned, same-sex marriage is not a huge issue compared to what other G-8 countries are trying to pull themselves out of. Come on Canada! See past the rhetoric and look at our standard of living compared to the majority our southern neighbors. The real issues: health care, accessible education and immigration. What are the party stances with these issues?

Conservatives: Two-tier system for the insured & un-insured alike. This party would like to give more power to the capitalization of our essential services. Privatization of health care would ensure that the lower income population would have to struggle towards receiving the best health care for example. This party pretty much stands for everything to do with capitalization and privatization. Not to mention the letter written to the New York Post from Stephen Harper to apologize for not entering the Iraq war, this is not my first choice for a Canadian government. Can you see where this would be heading?!!!!! :(

Liberals: At least these guys are willing to fight hard to catch up with Canada's social issues and include the last minority of our colourful mosaic that has been written into law: same-sex marriage. The Liberals also took Quebec to task for 4 years, defending our country's soverenty FOR 4 YEARS, day in day out. My visit to Montreal in 1995, Quebecors told me that all they wanted was control over their immigration and continued support for their social programs. As Canada's 2nd most populated province, they have the power and the Liberals want those votes.

Adscam. In a nutshell: Money flowing from the federal coffieurs into Quebec advertising agencies to help with the election platform in Quebec and lull the people into gradual complacency over a number of years. A crime? Yes! The Liberal Party obviously did not want to touch their campaign dollars or simply, didn't have the money to do the campaigning necessary in Quebec. I'm sure there are other factors in the Gomery inquiry, but the parties have been questioned and the bottom of it has been found out. Can Quebecors forgive? Je me soviens.

Not bowing to the American government is a big plus with me right now. Our federal budget surpluses, trade surpluses have proven our prudent commitment to sustainable growth while 8 years of fiscal recklessness down south looks less attractive. Technically speaking, I don't think we need their huge military industrial complex to "be more secure". We obviously have more tangible security issues to tackle such as poverty and the environment that directly hits Canadians as a society. Just try making our country more secure by replacing those 2 priorities with something like a war on terror instead.

NDP: I personally love Jack Layton. This guy walks the talk. While Mayor of Toronto, he rode his bicycle to City Hall everyday. He is out there with the protestors and dissenters to validate minority concerns. He pushes for more dollars into our health care system. He looks out for post secondary tuition increases/freezes. This party I would like to see as the Official Opposition.

Well, I digress. I will be voting with my conscience & wallet this coming January. A note to those who read this? Please look at the issues that these parties represent. Let's negotiate with our system and shape it with care for ALL!

Have you ever made a mistake?

Tonight I attended the pre-competition of Grey Cup. Up for the challenge was Edmonton Eskimos & BC Lions, which turned out to be a totally tight game. The players played hard and fought for every single point, I was satisfied in the end because Edmonton will compete in my hometown Vancouver for the Cup.

Near the last quarter of the game, the passions were high in the bar I was in. There were some Vancouver fans at our table and another table close by had some hard-drinking Edmonton fans. The Eskimo fans started dancing around our table singing their drunken glory, and one Canuck fan received a slight touch on the face. There was a bit of a brawl there that night, and they were both asked to leave.

It's amazing what can happen at an escalated sporting event. That close to the Grey Cup and people can gain mob mentality, wanting the ultimate altogether. Alberta folks are passionate indeed.

Take care,
Becca

Beautiful Bodems

Gingerly filling my kettle up with water and then off to the stove to boil. Filling the bottom of the bodem up with delicious coffee and waiting 5 minutes after boiling water is poured in. Squeeze the lid down and there you have a work of art rising to your lips. I can't digest milk products very well (they call it lactose-intolerent), so I use SoyGood Omega cream. Coffee with lots of B vits & omega 3 & 6 fatty acids is like a burst of energy, firing off into the sky!

Every wicked thing I’ve ever done. Every single sin I’ve stumbled on. Every blackened piece of bitterness. Mended with a shred of tenderness. All of this, was wonderful and worth the heartache. All of this, was beautiful and full of light. All of this, was everything I ever hoped for. All of this, was life.
Every time I drank myself to God. Every time I fell and got back up. Every lie that twisted back my tongue. Every time I lost and never won. All of this, was wonderful and worth the heartache. All of this, was beautiful and full of light. All of this, was everything I ever hoped for. All of this, was life.

Everything must change and so it does. Everything that’s good inside of us. Every fading hope will find its way. Every dying wish will see the light of day.......

love from becca

It feels like I am building something

There's this city, and it's a small one. Somehow I don't think that it's a bad thing because you can get to know some very quality people in only about a year or less. In a big city like Toronto, I met my very first friend in just over a year and I stayed for only two. Western Canada has a very different kind of vibe, kinda like wealthy Maritimers. I've got friends here that were very generous with their time & resources, and I've accomplished alot; more than I though I would. I guess when the need was ready, someone was there to teach me about the culture in Edmonton.

Travelling accross Canada, you may find different types of "Canadian Friendliness". BC, a very intuitive city that pays homage to emotional need and absolute loyalty. This is my hometown, hence this is me really. Alberta there is a different kind of friendliness, leaning to weariness because lots of people come here for the prosperity and then take their nest egg home. If people find that you walk the talk here, the friendship will be beneficial.

I also know about Winnipeg & Toronto, and how to function & prosper however, I think I like to keep walking the talk here just fine.....................YOU?

Do you know when you're loved?

Well, I think we all know when we love! That's the part about life that matters. I think people with love grow beautifully, there is every emotion possible when people are in love.

When we come along in life doing things all the time and not looking for love. That's the tricky part, as we need to self love first!LOL I have learned this lesson in Edmonton. I find this city very busy, ambitious, and passionate. I think Christmas is coming and the Edmonton Pig is getting fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ever heard the sound of your nose boogers freezing up?

It was only -14C today, so the walk to work was not as numbing as the title above, but quite the wake up this morning. To be very driven to work out and keep in shape takes the initial glee of proving to yourself you can do it the first few days, then the honeymoon soon enough ends. You start to feel it in the knees and feel the gravel in your shoes. Perhaps the traffic driving by becomes annoying, getting a whiff of the exhaust. When are these people going to take Rick Mercer's 1 Ton Challenge?!

Actually, it's not that bad, as people do what they do. I will keep plugging away so my heart doesn't die out someday. Admittedly, there are more benefits to keeping it up then quitting just because of the weather. What to do in cold weather in Canada? First, dress warm. First thing is definitely first in this case because to feel your boogers freeze ever in your life, protection is absolutely necessary. You will get faster, gain endurance and an overall sense of wellbeing. It's worth the effort. Create an impact and see results! I challenge you..............

Why do I love tuna sandwiches so much?

All I do is take two slices of flax bread, toast them, put tuna salad on them with 4 slices of cucumber and this is HEAVEN on earth! I think whole wheat bread in general is a bit of a crock, as it's a bit of an acquired taste for some people. I love fresh sourdough bread. Fresh from the oven, whip some butter on it and a slice of Havarti..................Instant satisfaction I guarantee you!

Cooking is soothing for me. I love to stand over a simmering pot of spaghetti sauce with pieces of chicken tenderly cooking away. The secret of my distinguished pasta sauce? You'll have to try some, then maybe I'll tell you..........(!)

Well, the reckoning has been dealt with and everyone's going to the shaw christmas party together! Ah.....homos & hetros alike, courtesy goes to the progressive movements of a generation that will prevale in our greatest human rights, on person at a time, in Canada.

Every leaf on every tree
Every drop of water in the sea
Every grain of sand
That smashes itself onto dry land
Every stone & every peddle
And everything that's elemental
You are never gone

CALLING GOD!
Calling out.........

Bended hands on bended knees
I pray for life's catastrophies
Hallilouihia, save your soul
Rock of ages
Dry of soul
Holy Moses
Blown away
Send salvation, send a saint!

CALLING GOD!!!
Calling out.......
CALLING GOD!!!
Calling out.........

Every leaf on every tree
Every drop of water in the sea..........

Every tear that hits the ground
Everything that's lost and never found
Every wish that always seems to disappear

CALLING GOD

Is this the age of Reckoning?

Well, lots of things are coming to a head lately. Some have benefits and freedom, some don't seem to have a conclusion too clear. Life sure seems to have some definate beginnings and exit stratagies sometimes! On the world stage, perhaps there may be some endings to both Canadian & American governments in their own fashion. Paul Martin tried to quell debates on an upcoming spring election today, while there has been an inditement on a Bush administration official. Public disgust in Quebec over the sponcership scandel was a symtom of how Quebec really feels within our great federation. They feel victimized and I'm 70% sure that the Bloc Party is the next victor within Quebecers hearts.

I believe the people of the U.S. are starting to come around in their attitude in regaining their current federal government. Their departments are really being scrutinzed by the media/alternative media now, because of democracy. Slowly but surely, they are waking up to their own mortality. How unfortunate it had to come at this late date.

Anyhow, I have some demons of my own to draw to a close recently and I think it will be for the better. Hopefully, it's for the best!

Have a great day tomorrow everyone,
Becca :)

Love'n'Hugs, Becca

So you think you have Christmas stress? Yeah, I'm not alone!

The tasks ahead of me for the upcoming Christmas I find are a bit overwhelming. My 6 year old son would like a GameBoy, and I have to have it in Philadelphia by Dec. 24th. I don't know how much this stuff costs, but if you let a 6 year old down, things don't go well at ALL! :)

Then there's the issue of getting ready for the company Christmas party. I've found the dress @ http://www.tallgirlshop.com/shop/candetails.php?proid=1419, it's kinda gothic and deeply coloured. I think I will get my hair done for this thing as well. I will be sure to post the pictures!

Then finally I will have to purchase an airline ticket to Vancouver, BC for the days of Christmas I get to spend with my immediate family. There are 7 weeks away from this time period and I hope it all goes off well. My aim of course is excellence, but I'm trying to be realistic with all the shopping and everything else that goes along with Christmastime!!

I hope everyone I know, has a fabulous Christmas! Love from Becca

Time goes by so slowly..................

Every little thing that you say & do
I'm hung up!
I'm hanging up on you!
Waitin' for your call
Baby night & day
I'm fed up!
I'm tired of waiting on you!!!!
I'm hanging up on you

Ah.....Madonna's new song Hung up. Her new dance album is coming out Nov 15th and I can't wait! This song can be heard @ www.madonna.com if you feel like checking it out. Truth & beauty rules man. I don't know if her tour will bring her to Edmonton, but I'll go to Calgary or Vancouver if she goes there. I've never been to a Madonna show before, but I've heard she puts on something fabulous.

Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up,
I don't know what to do
Time goes by so slowly.......

Ring ring ring goes the telephone
The lights are on but there's noone's home!
Tick, tick tock
It's a quarter to 2
I'm done
I'm hanging up on you

I can't keep on waiting for you
I know that you're still hesitating
Don't cry for me
Cause I'll find my way
You'll wake up some day
BUT IT WILL BE TOO LATE!

Thanks Maddie, I needed that one.

Finally going out to do it for myself @32

Today there was this Shaw pep rally to announce the fiscal earnings of the past year, and what the projected earning for 2006 might be. Sounds very fascinating, eh? Well, they give us lunch at these things, so what the hell - I'm game. The event was quite neat actually, because they brought up the principles of "Paying it Forward". How do we pay it forward at Shaw, is what they wanted us to come up with. So, are table says "laughter is contagious"! What a team!

At this company, work is pretty much my life. I meet new people here everyday because we are doing massive hiring. The telephony business is booming and we have been playing catch up from the extremely busy summer month. If you are reading this, have mensa intelligence and a desire to belong, this is the place to have a career. I love it!